Cupcakes always cheer me up! It’s impossible to be sad when you’re holding a cupcake!
I didn’t get the news I was hoping for and I’m trying not to let it bring me down. I don’t want to do what I’ve always done and feel sorry for myself and quit because the going got tough.
The next few days might be challenging with this weighing on my mind and I will be alone, but I’m determined to get through it and come out on top. I have to stay busy so that my over thinking doesn’t get the best of me. I am not going to allow a bump in the road to slow me down. I’ve come so far and I’m actually just getting started.
I had a fantastic day and now I’m lying in bed trying not to worry about tomorrow. Or at least I was worrying until I read this quote.
I’m going back to the doctor tomorrow for more blood work on my liver. Naturally this is something suitable to worry about but I’ve decided that worrying is useless. It’s not going to change the outcome of the tests one way or another. So what’s the point? It’s only going to cause anxiety, lack of sleep and wrinkles. So I’m not worried anymore. It is out of my control.
*blushing* I’m feeling pretty good too! Thank you so much!
I’m feeling cute and spunky today! Could be the 4 miles on the elliptical this morning or the yoga this afternoon. Maybe it’s because now I’m headed to Tai Chi!
When I make a plan, I make a plan!
It’s like my brain is full of post it notes and just when I’m beginning to feel peaceful a note pops up with a bad memory on it. My brain absolutely refuses to let me forget these things, yet it doesn’t have a problem letting me forget where I put my keys.
So many memories that haunt me. They torment me and drive me mad. Why won’t they go away and let me be?
I was triggered by Diet Sprite! That’s what I used to drink with my whiskey. I went to the store and it caught my eye. I stopped and stood there for a moment looking at it, wanting to put in my basket followed by a trip to the liquor store. I didn’t do this consciously, it was as if I was in a daze. Like I was dreaming, maybe even a flashback. When I snapped out of it I shook my head, clearing it of the thought, grabbed some cookies and got out of there.
I’ve been feeling so good lately that this caught me off guard and I was a quite disturbed by it. I’ve since had time to think about why it happened. I think it was brought on by the fact that I have done absolutely nothing constructive or productive today. My unoccupied mind left room for unwanted thoughts and that puts me in a vulnerable position. Boredom is my enemy as it is for most alcoholics.
Lesson learned…remain active! So tonight I’m going to actively eat these cookies and make a game plan for tomorrow.
Change doesn’t happen overnight. I have to remember to be patient, keep moving forward and to ask for help when I need it.
That’s fantastic! Congratulations! You should be SUPER proud of yourself. I’m so glad I could help. Keep moving forward.